Its holy week! and still. the scorching heat is here! ugh. it sucks. heat+boredom= a totally disastered angeline in a perfectly useless body. The last Activity I had  was last April 4 and I knew my memory would knock on the door of my head and tell me 'It's urrah's birthday dude! aren't you gonna do anythin?' So I was like.. hmm.. I began to think of things that would either just surprise her and make her smile or do the same thing buuuuut, she has to cry. Mean-ie meee. Ofcourse! I would want a tear than a petty smile! because being her friend for how many years I would rather touch her heart forever than just make her laugh for awhile. Believe me those years were not easy. I'm so thankful time have been in favor to me everytime I need it more than the usual. A had the whole day to plan everything in a rush. again, RUSH. That day I met Kim at Miriam and chilled for awhile since heat has not been good to me. Since I was with her, I might as well ask her if she have any ideas what I can do. anything special for Urrah on that night. I told her my initial plan and that is to surprise her the minute the clock ticks to 12. She said that was fine but its a big risk. Urrah is not at all I mean not anymore a house person so probably there's a 50 50 chance she would have been at home. Sooo. I tried to ask for her plans and yeah, I was right she had to go to somewhere with her family. but then, again, hindi natuloy lahat ng plans nia for the day and was stuck inside the house. I dont want to pursue this plan alone ofcourse, won't I look stupid If I'd go alone db? namaan. so I had to contact Paolo, his boyfriend, and Sai, our beloved sister. We had like an investigation to Urrah's itinerary for the day and each had own agendas. Paolo quote and quote got angry to Urrah, Sai stayed silent about her plans, and Me, I pretended that I'll be sleeping in just a while. Actually, she busted our plan because of that petty text she mistakenly read from her mother's phone but because of our own agendas, she actually believed our pretensions. We also had a problem on how to get out of our own houses because it was too late. Imagine. 8.30 pm we were about to lose hope and move all plans for the next day. 9:00 pm Paolo texted us to push it all through. Fortunately, my Dad allowed me. Sai was also allowed by her mother and there. Thanks to Paolo, the greatest driver, picked us up from our houses and stayed at Select near Urrah's since our butts were 30 minutes early. Funny though, we thought of all the craziest ideas on how to make Urrah go out their house. First plan: his cousin would pass by using pao's car and ask Urrah where's Pao. uhm?! kind'f weird diba? it's obviously done. He's using 'Pao's' car!  Second Plan: Pao's initial gift is Siomai with chili sauce (yumm!) and he just passed by to give that. That one's good. simple but sure. Pao will signal us with a scratch over the head to light up the cake and go out the car. and so we did. Everything was perfectly done! awww. and Urrah, as she said, was surprised. She laughed but she didn't cry. too bad things were not much as I expected.

haloha! its summer 2006. wuhoo! I definitely missed blogging here at my xanga because it apparently seemed so deserted for sooo long because it hasn't changed. I was hooked to fixing my multiply account and of course! schoolwork! wheeeew. hell that. Now I'm in college and things seemed to be stranger to me. So many things have changed. From everyday dilemmas, schedule, everyday hangout places, types of people I see everyday, and people I used to hang out. Yes. Even the friends I've known for soo long. You wont imagine how my sanity sore for missing those little things I've shared with those people I treasure the most. My initial response to this 'big' change was: to ignore or simply think that it's just a culture test. like a trivia quiz; what would you do if you're stuck with this and that, there and wherever.. but my eyes slowly opened to the reality that it's different now. I can't stay subtle and relaxed bout my situation right now. I don't want to lose all those I've already earned. And here I am regaining ALMOST everything and aiding the once sane-thinker which is obviously me. crap! this is hard swear. try to get in touch with all your friends though kilometers stand between but contrary to that, I also do believe that it wasn't only my effort brought us together but the essence of our friendship. awwww. haha but true, true enough! and to those who will soon to be baptized to enter the world of 'kolehiyo'. you'll have the same experience. 

Now, I'm already in the stage of making the biggest verdict. whether I should transfer to a course that I know will promise me a wealthy life or a course which brought me to my thinness right now and the cry over a spilled milk. For now, I'll leave that line for my finale. I'll just wait for a progress I hope would occur some time in the near future. One thing I'll promise to myself and to everyone. Angel will not change.

So weird that i'm feeling so pushed these past few days but I haven' been able to create entries for this blog. see. Pushed then is not a good thing 'cause it makes me worse. I'm feeling pushed also to change the layout of this journal 'cause I'm thinking that the later I change it, the more it gets boring to look at the same design again and again. Maybe this thought only works for me 'cause every time I go online, I check my site. I'm tired of it's color and looks. I want to change it but I don't have the will and power to do it. I'm so idle. so laid back. All I did, I think, was to think about the past. I always miss it. well, what other possible thing you can do with your past? forget? sheesh. I don't forget and never will I. Same as with the "forgive and forget" quote. I forgive but I don't forget. It is because I believe that the past forms what we are now. Let's take the college exams as an example. The past is good. I always study. I do homeworks. I get good grades. I review. Now the outcome is.. I dint get into the college of my dreams. Lame isn't to believe on such when it doesn't work on myself. nice huh. Maybe that's the only exception but I still don't understand what I did on that exam dint get me into my goal. darn me. Now past is lame. That means, even the happiest things that occurred in the past we're all not worth. howcome I still seek that past to happen and come back again when I know it will not?  maybe they were just too good to forget. here's a quick recap of what I did this week.

Monday: last minute, I left the house at about 5.30 and picked den up at Mongkok. Went straight to Katipunan and then to Xavierville to watch Marco's game. support ika nga. Met up with Urrah, Bim, Kats, and Val. there. Val i remember was an acquaintance at a party at Capitol Golf with the H people. She was with Sam Cuatico? not sure. that was long long ago back in our second year days. We were there for support to the Figueras brothers. They are against each other and that simple info makes the watching fun. Besides, I got my friends company so that's ok.

Tuesday: I was where? I was at..at..home and talked to Urrah the whole day. almost.

Wednesday: I went out for the sake of accompanying denisse to DLSU for enrollment, id picture taking, and medical and dental exam. We went through mrt to lrt. lrt to mrt. psssshh! whattaday! I also talked to urrah til midnight.

Thursday: stayed home and watched amazing race.

Friday: I'm not sure yet if I'm going out. It's friday the thirteenth and I think it's better not to go out. safer. i guess. I'm also saving this day so that I will be wholeheartedly permitted tomorrow to "the out of town trip for a day" with Trins, Laurine, Denisse, [Urrah's not sure yet], and maybe meet Sai at Tagaytay. This trip is not 100 percent assured yet.

*ThankS to those who tagged that it looks good. eheheh halaa..na-shy?!

what happened the other day was quite unexpected. Again, we went to the 5-5-05 gig at the freedom bar for support to the Hansom and HMTE bands. That night made me believe more that things do really happen when you least expect it. haha Den and I left the house at about 8.30 pm and got to starbucks katipunan to meet up with Dom I. We convoyed 'til we reach the bar kc  alam ni Dom how to go there and parked. The sounds were a bit too rocky.As in hard rock head bangin'! haha But the rest of the bands were fine. We saw Marco and Dom Fig, Ayo, Gerard, Gio Limjoco,Inigo, the Vergel-de Dios brothers and more.

and as the last gig, the place was grillin' with hotness! grabe! At least we still managed to alibi ourselves from the heat and moved in and out of the room and stealed the only aircon inside.haha Was fun laughing about what Eric Bugia was hiding in front of the stage. haha Anyway, had a worthwhile talk with Gio about this thing that happened which is a big regret and a big SAYANG lalo na kay Nella. Too bad. Too sad. Hay nako Greg.... here it goes agaaain...

I dint know Gio was perky din pala as in makulit and he's not that airhead egotistic person I thought he was before. I was all wrong. haha I aready went out with a group of friends including him pero I dint expect him to be like the way he was nung gig. haha fun! yieeeeeee cla na ult ni Mara! congrats! haha sheesh prang tgal ng news un ah, haha

trip to bora! I won't give details anymore but to sum it all up. It's waaaay happier,"funner",cooler!!haha April 29 to May 2, 2005

The best paradise! We rode the trike costing 200 pesos back n forth goin to Pucca beach and were stunned with it's untouched nature.WoooooooW!